Some things remain the same ...

... like my love for daisies.

I think they're beautiful.

Simple.  Lovely.

Yesterday was awesome!

I felt pampered and spoiled.

Relaxed.  Very relaxed.

I-just-want-to-nap-kinda-relaxed.

So, when I got home last night,

I decided to turn off my phone,

and just read.

No, I didn't work. 

I read through old emails between my cousin and I.

She lives in a different country, so we write.

A lot.  And so, I read emails from 2006.

I was being nostalgic. 

Like I said, birthdays do that to me.

And wow!  I was surprised how things have changed.

I have changed.  A lot.

I'm happy.

I guess, what hit me most was how my heart wasn't

broken anymore.  As I read words I wrote about

someone I loved and lost, I didn't feel anything.

Not longing, not missing, nothing.

And it wasn't the I-don't-want-to-feel-anything-for-him feeling.

I really felt nothing.  Not a pinch in my heart.

I didn't become overwhelmed with nostalgia about him and us anymore.

There was no reflecting.  Nothing.  The words I read

about love, loss and regrets became just words.

And, I really don't know when all of the feelings stopped.

But they did.

Over dessert, my dear, best friend said to me,

I think all of the broken hearts and disappointments

were meant to prepare you for something greater.

I've seen you love and give it your all.

You will do that again.

And the thing I realized last night,

is that things do change.  We change.

But in the midst of change, some things remain the same.

The people I laughed and cried with five years ago,

ten years ago, even twenty years ago,

are still the same people I laugh and cry with now.

And I know that we'll continue to laugh and cry together

until we can no longer stand straight.

Some things remain the same. 

No matter how life has changed us.

And as much I welcome and embrace change,

I also embrace those things that remain the same.

I also know now, that our ability to love

never dies.  It may go in hiding for awhile.

But it'll always be there.

Because broken hearts have the ability to heal.

Our hearts do get restored.

Put back to pieces.

And we can love again.

Today, I celebrate new beginnings.

And an amazing year ahead.

Photo: Kiwi GaL

today is the day. this is the moment.

"If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be.

Embrace the uncertainty.  Allow it to lead you places.

Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart

and your mind as you create your own path towards

happiness, don't waste time with regret.  Spin wildly

into your next action.  Enjoy the present, each moment,

as it comes, because you'll never get one quite like it.

And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost,

simply take a breath and start over.  Retrace your steps

and go back to the purest place in your heart ...

where your hope lives.  You'll find your way again."

(-- Better Than Fine)                       

*photo via littlefernista

reason.

You are the reason I didn't know about

but have always been hoping for.

*photo by Philipp Klinger

Today I stopped believing ...

... in never.

*photo

the message

Last night I had coffee with an old friend who I haven't seen and spoken to in years. She had contacted me a couple of days ago, just out of the blue, asking to have coffee and to let me know she had a dream about me. And all day yesterday, I felt anxious and nervous about seeing her. There was a short moment when I thought, maybe I should cancel because I was really busy and had a lot of work I still needed to do. But I'm glad I didn't. Because I didn't realize how much I missed her until I couldn't wait to see her again.

So, anyhow, as we sat across each other ... and she told me about the dream, I thought, it's amazing how God sends us messengers during times when we don't hear him ourselves. And then, today, I came across this, and I knew I had to share the message.

The day you read this.
*by: iwrotethisforyou

On this day, you read something that moved you and made you realise there were no more fears to fear. No tears to cry. No head to hang in shame. That every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that. That everyone and everything lives on inside you. That that doesn’t make any of it any less real.

That soft touches will change you and stay with you longer than cold ones.

That being alone means you’re free. That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with. That the tingles running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear, constantly, if you choose to hear them. That everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it enough. That every time you think a sad thought, you can think a happy one instead.

That you control that completely.

That the people who make you laugh are more beautiful than beautiful people. That you laugh more than you cry. That crying is good for you. That the people you hate wish you would stop and you do too.

That your friends are reflections of the best parts of you. That you are more than the sum total of the things you know and how you react to them. That dancing is sometimes more important than listening to the music.

That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life are only remembered by you and no one else. That no one judges you when you walk into a room and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them. That what you make and what you do with your time is more important than you’ll ever fathom and should be treated as such. That the difference between a job and art is passion. That neither defines who you are. That talking to strangers is how you make friends.

That bad days end but a smile can go around the world. That life contradicts itself, constantly. That’s why it’s worth living.

That the difference between pain and love is time. That love is only as real as you want it to be. That if you feel good, you look good but it doesn’t always work the other way around.

That the sun will rise each day and it’s up to you each day if you match it. That nothing matters up until this point. That what you decide now, in this moment, will change the future. Forever. That rain is beautiful.

And so are you.

*iwrotethisforyou is a beautiful blog. Genuine. Heartfelt. You should read it some time. :)

A Message

*image via laura marie

Have a little faith

*photo by dranidis

... and let go.

"Letting go is the action part of faith. It is a behavior that gives God and the Universe permission to send to us what we're meant to have. Letting go means we acknowledge that hanging on so tightly isn't helping to solve the problem, change the person, or get the outcome we desire. It isn't helping us. In fact, we learn that hanging on often blocks us from getting what we want and need."
- The Language of Letting Go