some kind of mood.

I must be in some kind of mood.  I woke up at 4 a.m. today, and just could not go back to sleep.  I stayed in bed, staring at the ceiling.  At the walls.  At the empty space next to me...

And instead of watching clips of the Anthony trial, I watched clips of Felicity.  Yes, I must be in some kind of mood.

Felicity talked about a secret language between her and Ben.  A language spoken without words.  A language I know pretty well.

I am in some kind of mood.  Because doing the right thing is sometimes the hardest thing to do. 

But sometimes, we just have to let the pieces fall. 

And trust, that they will be put back together the way they are meant to be. 

I finished The Alchemist.  And out of its many lessons and messages, this one is still my favorite:

"What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized,

the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along

the way.  It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can,

in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we've

learned as we've moved toward that dream.  That's the point

at which most people give up.  It's the point at which, as we say

in the language of the desert, one 'dies of thirst just when the palm

trees have appeared on the horizon.' 

"Every search begins with beginner's luck.  And every search

ends with the victor's being severely tested."  

Yep, that's why I'm in some kind of mood.