I haven't logged on to this site in such a long time that it took me several minutes to remember my password.
But here I am ... again.
I know some of you are wondering what happened to me since my last post.
Well, A LOT.
But I should start with the end.
This year has closed a lot of chapters in my life. Chapters and loose ends that have been dwindling away for quite awhile, but have not completely closed or gone because, well honestly, I allowed them to linger around. Perhaps, it was my fear of completely letting go that kept me holding on.
Sometimes the past becomes a security blanket that we never want to let go.
But finally, I let go. And decided to start anew ...
... which brings me to this. I learned awhile ago who most of my readers are. Actually, for the most part, I had an idea of who my readers were - whether friend, family or stranger. Except for one. I couldn't figure out who was going on my site several times a day from the same IP address. But one day, without even trying, the answer came to me. And for awhile, it took me for a spin. I kept wondering, why would she read my blog?
It was quite a shock, I have to admit. A shocking revelation that brought upon many mixed emotions for awhile. And again, the same question, why? But now that I reached the end, the answer to that question doesn't really matter. At least, not to me.
But, as I move on to this new chapter in my life, I wanted to address my "reader." For whatever reason you have for reading my blog (my suspicion, although quite presumptuous, is that it's not because you especially like my writing), I wish you the best. And if I should be more bold, I say, if you're trying to find answers, I say you already have them. Usually, I have learned, the answers we're looking for are actually right in front of us. We know them already. Sometimes it's not the answers we want, and so we keep looking, but we can't change them. The answers are what they are. And thus, what can we do?
For me, I moved on.
And life is wonderful.
So, for those of you who read my blogs with intentions other than you really are just a fan of my writing ... do yourselves a favor, and move on.
Life is too short to stay in the past.
Things somehow always turn out the way they should ...
But here I am ... again.
I know some of you are wondering what happened to me since my last post.
Well, A LOT.
But I should start with the end.
This year has closed a lot of chapters in my life. Chapters and loose ends that have been dwindling away for quite awhile, but have not completely closed or gone because, well honestly, I allowed them to linger around. Perhaps, it was my fear of completely letting go that kept me holding on.
Sometimes the past becomes a security blanket that we never want to let go.
But finally, I let go. And decided to start anew ...
... which brings me to this. I learned awhile ago who most of my readers are. Actually, for the most part, I had an idea of who my readers were - whether friend, family or stranger. Except for one. I couldn't figure out who was going on my site several times a day from the same IP address. But one day, without even trying, the answer came to me. And for awhile, it took me for a spin. I kept wondering, why would she read my blog?
It was quite a shock, I have to admit. A shocking revelation that brought upon many mixed emotions for awhile. And again, the same question, why? But now that I reached the end, the answer to that question doesn't really matter. At least, not to me.
But, as I move on to this new chapter in my life, I wanted to address my "reader." For whatever reason you have for reading my blog (my suspicion, although quite presumptuous, is that it's not because you especially like my writing), I wish you the best. And if I should be more bold, I say, if you're trying to find answers, I say you already have them. Usually, I have learned, the answers we're looking for are actually right in front of us. We know them already. Sometimes it's not the answers we want, and so we keep looking, but we can't change them. The answers are what they are. And thus, what can we do?
For me, I moved on.
And life is wonderful.
So, for those of you who read my blogs with intentions other than you really are just a fan of my writing ... do yourselves a favor, and move on.
Life is too short to stay in the past.
Things somehow always turn out the way they should ...
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