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It's been quite a day. Definitely moving start. But it feels like this one day has been one whole week. One whole month. It has gone from inspirational and hopeful to exhausting and devastating. Funny how rapidly things can change in a matter of hours. And during these times, it makes me miss those I can cry to. It must say something about me when the last time I cried on someone's shoulders, literally, was about five and a half years ago. That was the last time I asked someone to just hold me. While I cried. It felt good. Afterwards. I don't think I've ever felt so ... free. If I had known I'd never find someone who would listen to me in that way again, I would have never let him go.

Yes, I'm having a short relapse. Again.

But every time I think my life is actually calm, something always happens to f&*k it all up. Would it be too much to wish for someone to take care of me for once?

I just want to know how that feels.

For at least five minutes.

Five minutes.

And I'll never ask for anything again.